I often feel very undeserving for all the good things in my life lately. I am married to an amazing man who is my best friend and will be giving birth to our son next month, a son my husband is insanely excited about. I will be able to stay home with him thanks to my husband and I working hard/budgeting/sacrificing, etc. We have a small but lovely apartment, two little cats that we love, and while we have little money, everything is stable and calm and safe.
Some tell me this is simply humility and gratefulness. Others say I need to work on my self esteem. My sister tells me that this is a side effect of having two alcoholic parents and having a chaotic/abusive childhood... as in we never can quite believe that things can be good, or when they are, that we don't deserve them.
So I was wondering your opinion, AMA. Why do I feel so incredibly undeserving for the good in my life, and do any of you feel this way?
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